Kemane Menghilang

ada yang bertanya.."ko dah tak blog ke?"..ade jerk aku kat sini..tp masalahnye aku malas..tak tau apsal malas sgt mau blogging. aku rase routine aku everyday same jerk..tadek climax..tadek menarek..*climax katenye..

hari2 pown gie keje..hari2 pown ckp hp..msg..chenta chenta..gaduh gaduh..kecik ati..dan sebagainya..jadiknye takkan aku nk citer every ke'happy'an dan ke'kecik'kan ati aku nie..nak tu memang nak sebenarnye..tp cam risau persepsi orang...dah byk kali aku buat new post dan aku delete..cause halfway of the post..aku rsae cam tak perlu..haaaaaaa cane tue..

and i've also lose my passion in my work..kalo dulu semangat nk gi keje..skang nie..nk gi keje nk menangis..kene plak ade orang pujuk aku..*padehaldiepownsamegaks

tp aku gagahkan jugakla gi keje..tu pasal le aku byk ilang..gi breakfast..tido..tu sume dh sebati..sebabnye..? aku tak byk keje..aku nie tak boleh kalo tadek keje..mulelah nk tido..biar byk keje..biar sampai tak blk..tp gaji kene berbaloi la kannnn...but da pay here is good..but i need more workload...adeh..cane tue?

tis week is a BIG week...hope everything will go as planned. kalo tak..mampos aku...1st time nie nk organize birthday orang secare besar-besaran..dh ler aku nk buat surprise party..kengkawan die lom confirm agi..aduh...cane nieh..?

pape pown..outfit aku dh dapat..kasut dh beli..tinggal yg lain2 jerk here n there..tempat lom booking sebab i need to know how many people yg nk dtg..tue yg stress tue..hish la..

ok enuff membebeling..aku nk actually kene prepare buat proposal nie..naseb bek ade keje..but next monday aku cootiii...yay!!

Birthday Celebration

actually on my birthday itself was quite hectic...i was awake from 8am..send the car to Perodua for normal service..and being a birthday girl i've asked my dad o pick me up...padehal boleh jerk selame nie ko lintas jalan naik lrt kan....tp disebabkan aku mengados pade hari itu dan malas lintas jalan hatta mahupun menaiki jejantas...

n because of my dad picked me up..i need to follow my parents to have breakfast in Sungai Besi...jauhkannnnnnnnn...tp tu tempat chenta chenta dorang di ujung minggu...nasik lemak, lontong n mihun goreng die terbaeekkk weh..actually sambal die yg sedap tu...

After that we went back home & just wait for Perodua to call me to pick the car...i think around 10+ my car is ready ..n after I've picked up car..I need to go to my dad's office to install encik Kaspersky pulak..kuhengatkan pc baru tadek la ternakan ternakan..rupenye ade lah dlm 6-7 virus virus...dem yuh...melambatkan kerjaan aku...

sudahnye..pulang dengan kelam kabut dan mandi..sempat jugak lunch dengan hidangan odang odang..*kate birthday..kenelah odang forever wehhh...

yang tak bestnye...around 2pm i need to go somewhere to run some errands before my hair appointment at 4pm in Hartamas..tp jalan..Masya Allah..jem ya hamat okkkkkkkkkkkkkk..............bleh plak jln in front of sg wang totop......arrgghhh...aku kuar umah kol 2...nk lepaskan sg wang tu nk dokek setengah jam jugaklah...tensi okkk...

tp luckily sempat la mengsettlekan errand & sampai sharp at 4pm in Hartamas for my hair do...tp yg hazabnye..nk ke ampang n amik orang dan pergi bersiap tu yang tak bleh tahan jemnye tue...

orang kate jem sebab sume orang gie open house..plus da tanglung festival...aduhhh...

mlm menjelma....celebration nye adalah di karaokeeeeeeeeeeeee.........

tantek rambut ai...ngehehhehehe....

yang datang drpd awl adalah...adik akuuuuuuuuuuuuu............

partner in crime ketika zaman jahiliyah...siap ade time table ok sape bawak kete jika mau jimba jimba...ngehehhehe..adelah sebab kitorang kenape ade time table.cheng cheng cheng...

she's married ppl......ngehheehhe..

laki memule malu malu nk nyanyi..skali dh nyanyi..ha amik ko.....lepas kau..kau..lepas kau,,kau...hahhahha...ade lagi yang datang..my ex account manager & my ex bos..siap bawak adiah ok bos aku tue..time kaseh la encik kamal...esok2 saye leh bukak kedai perfume...but its a very nice smell..pandai jugak orang tua tu carikkan perfume utk aku..dulu ferragamo..birthday aigner plak...bagussssssssssss......

dan selepas itu gambar pown tak amik sbb aku sebok entertain orang orang dan juge lagu lagu byk kene nyanyi..walaupun pada mlm itu sore aku out of tune abes...n ..

thanks to u kambeng..

birthday birthday

ye..dh berkurun aku tak hapdet...there're a lot of things going on around me lately...pastu saket manjang..mende nak hapdet nye....

yes my birthday was earlier tis month...nothing special..just a small celebration...tp standard la kan...haruslah haf pressie from my parentssss..

actually..my birthday present i dh beli time bulan puase..but knowing my parents..dorang sorok dulu..time birthday baru boleh pakai..my mummy n my sis dah kasik da pressies one week before my birthday..

so from my dad adalahhhhhhhh...

ngehehhehe...knape comforter set..sbb my mom dh kasik adiah mahal...so..memandangkan anaknye yang demanding nie nk 2 adiah...soo....

from my mum...

wah chan mariiiiiiii......aku pilih sendiri..aku bayar dulu..sbb promotion nk abeh..terpakse la bayar dulu..kang promotion abeh cane nk dapat murah...

yang bawah nie satu from my mummy n satu from my sis.....

oppsss...sile abaikan jari jemari berkedut tue...biaselah nenek nenek memang begitu...

n..of course..it will not complete without flowers from my mum....

dan abaikan juga muke berminyak itu sebabnye berkejaran daripada pagi anta kete servis - brekfes kat sg besi - blk umah - amik kete servis - install antivirus kat ofc - blk umah

party birthday..? nnt bile aku rajen..aku hapdet ye....ngehehhehe...

The Pieces Don't Fit

someone emailed me a youtube link for this song

I've been twisting and turning,
In a space that's too small.
I've been drawing the line and watching it fall,
You've been closing me in, closing the space in my heart.
Watching us fading and watching it all fall apart.

Well I can't explain why it's not enough, Cause I gave it all to you.
And if you leave me now, oh just leave me now.
It's the better thing to do,
It's time to surrender,
It's been to long pretending.
Theres no use in trying,
When the pieces don't fit anymore, Pieces don't fit here anymore.

You pulled me under,
If I had to give in.
Such a beautiful myth,
That's breaking my skin.
Well I'll hide all the bruises,
I'll hide all the damage that's done.
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone.

Ooh don't missunderstand,
How I feel.
Cause I've tried, yes I've tried.
But still I don't know why, no I don't know why.
III dont know why...... whyyyyyyyy!

tapi.....tak paham plisss...or i choose not to understand...i dun start all the "cynical double meaning" shit...i know..i heard...so fuck off...

Happy Birthday Along

cube tengok setahun lepas..post apekah yang ada pada hari ini...sudah tentulah special entri for awek nie...

happy birthday alongggggggggggggggggg....

kalo orang bace..eh cam close close sangat budak nie ngan along..padehal call bile nk tanye bende dan amat jarang skali komen blog along..tp bile along nye birthday beriya-riya komen kat FB, blog n entri kat blog sendiri..

actually..i treasure her friendship..few years back..im having my jiwa kacau moments..she was there to layan my ym..forwarding the right songs..so even she didn't even realize wat she did...but i really really really thank her for that..

along..thanks for everything...thanks for being a sweet friend..have fun today..enjoy your birthday...mwaahhh...

crankyness

oklah oklah..saye tidak cranky lagi...tp cane tak cranky kalo gaji tak masuk lagi..my preparation start from tomorrow afternoon after work..haiyoh..but for tomorrow da budget udah ada...

its just da whole from morning sampai mlm lah yang saket sket kalo gaji tak masuk..

tp janji tak cranky dh...saye kan twistedddddddddd.....

When I'm feeling Blue

he said..she sound distanced, tired & different..he asked her whats bothering her..he told her not to bottled it up too long..

her answer...She's fine..seriously..its nothing

He told her there're lots of things on his mind right now. So, she decided not to bother him with her missing him with all her heart till it really hurts & she cried herself to sleep

When the missing feeling gets to strong till it eating her up, she pull away